More stupid new years resolutions?!

Yea, I know.
But I want to actually try this year.
I know I say this every year, if only to myself but I think that I have enough motivation to actually get things going and stick to it this year.

Cant wait to look back on this next new years and realize I've done none of what I wanted to do.
Alright, without further ado...

1) Draw every single day.
I know, considering what I'm taking in school and what I want to do for a career, this seems like a really stupid resolution. I don't draw as much as I'd like to, or should for that matter. I really need to step it up if I ever want to improve. So this is my first resolution.

2) Become better at time management.
I need to learn how to manage my time WAY better. This past semester taught me how important it is that I learn this skill. I need to keep school, homework, work, and a social life in order. I have to keep up with my assignments so I'm not stuck at school till midnight 3 nights a week to finish!

3) Only use the elevator at school once per day.
It would be SO easy to lose weight being in the animation program, since we're on the 4th floor. All you have to do is not be lazy and actually take the stairs every/most of the time.
I lost 10 pounds in the first month and a half, here's hoping 20 more hit the road before summer.

4) Lose 20 pounds by summer, kind of goes hand in hand with number 3.
I know its possible after losing 10 already. I can do it! Not that hard! No more Wendy's for heavens sake!

5) Get my tattoo finished.
I'm hoping to work enough this summer to be able to afford a few more sessions on my arm and finish it up before the years end. Cant wait to see some colour!

6) Read a lot over the summer.
I have a stack of at least 6 or 7 novels that I have yet to read from last year.
I need to get that done this summer.

7) Do something every day that makes me leave the house.
There's nothing worse than having the laziest day in the world because theres nothing to do so I end up staying home and feeling gross. This is especially for the summer, I want to go out every day, even if its just to ride my bike through the ravine. I don't have time to waste so much of it.


That's all I can think of for now. It's a lot to do, but I think I can do it.
Lets start with number one. I'm gonna go draw for a bit.
School starts in 1 more week. Hopefully I'll be able to upload some of my stuff from first semester before then.

Later days

Schoolz

Omg, blog!

First of all, it's been too long.
So much has happened worthy of blogging about, but I have had no motivation to do so.

School is in 2 days!!!
It's finally here and I'm still just as excited about it as I was before. If not more!

Ok...quick run down of some things that have happened:

-Lost my job at bbv.
-Had 3 weeks 'off'
-3 interviews later, Ikea hired me.
-Couple shifts in, realized how difficult of a job it really is
-Got my new macbook! woot woot!
-Haven't gained any weight!! (haven't lost any either)
-Went to the Ex and watched my friends eat deep fried butter.

Hmm...what else? Cant think of anything.
Anyways, now that school is finally starting, I'm hoping to update this blog with some art as I go.
So we'll see.

Anyways, I've got lots of iTuning to do so I must get back to that.
I'll be back soon.

Later days.

Wind in my hair...er...pony tail?

Had a very enjoyable bike ride today through the ravine avec Salman and Tony.

Surprised how riding during the hot hours minimized the bugs in your face.
Although I shouldn't be, since it makes perfect sense.
Any how, it was loads of fun and a good workout.
Even if we didn't get to play Pooh sticks.


Later days.

So...

I'm fat.


Later Days

Schooooooool

So here I am, sitting in front of my computer with a cup of coffee and a banana.

It's Monday weigh in, but I'll be honest. I haven't weighed myself yet. Passed by the scale twice already but I feel like nothing is going to have changed.
I'll probably do it before I'm done writing this post so just hang in there.

I've been getting more excited about school lately.
I think it was yesterday I was thinking about it and I actually realized that this program is 3 years. I'll still be in school even after the end of the world in 2012.
Eww, I'll be graduating in the year of 2013. Bad luck? I hope not.

It's so weird to think about what you might be doing in 2 or 3 years time. I wonder how much my art will have improved. I wonder what area I'm going to enjoy the most and specialize in. I wonder if I'll still be working at Blockbuster. I wonder if I'll still be enjoying what I'm doing, or if I'll be sick of it already and take another 'break'(like I did with my photography).

Only 3 and a half months left!
I'm waiting for them to send me my fee information package, then once I've paid my fees, I get my schedule. I hope it's not ridiculous. Having already been in school for 3 years, I wont have to take a gen ed every semester like everyone else, so I'm looking forward to my work load being smaller. I do have to go talk to someone about that just to make sure though, I almost got screwed over last time.

So I'm pretty sure that I'm getting a mac book pro for school. At first, I almost didn't want to because then I'd miss my old computer. But this guy has been giving me trouble lately and would not hold up to the programs I'll need to run, so maybe its a good idea to say goodbye. My mom has already claimed my laptop for herself since her computer is all messed up. I have a feeling she's just going to do the same thing to this one.

I also want to invest in a really good backpack. So I'll have to shop around for that. Lots of research.

I'm not looking forward to the amount of money I'll have to spend on supplies the first semester. I know we have to get an artist drawing animation wheel thingy ma jig. Those are expensies!
Who knows what else.

I'm excited to be able to have a gym to go to! I wont have any excuses anymore. Although, I do want to lose most of the weight before school starts. So doesn't work out too too well.
Alright already! I'll go weigh myself!
.....
I'm even with last week.
No up or down.

Hmm...

Alright, well I guess that's it for me. I wrote way more than I ever thought I would.

Later days

Wow...

...It's been a while.

So as for Monday weigh ins the past 2 weeks, I was down, and then up again.
Just basically circling around the same numbers.
I hate this, but I really have no reason to be upset since I'm not really trying that hard to do anything about it.

I'm going to try to keep this post short.

Some things I thought about that I wanted to blog about:

The other day I was stopped at a red light, and I saw a man on a bike with a pitcher of water in his one hand. And inside that pitcher? Why, there was a goldfish of course!
He was taking his goldfish for a bike ride.
I thought that was amazing.

My grandma on my moms side passed away this past week, her funeral was on Saturday.
When she passed, I thought about posting something on facebook regarding it. Then I thought, she's not going to log onto afterlifefacebook.com so there's absolutely no point updating my status about this. Then I went on to think about why anyone would update their status regarding someone who just passed, especially saying "goodbye grandma". Like they're ever going to see that. Even if it was "Just to let everyone know, grandma passed away" wouldn't it still be awkward to all the people in your friends list that never knew her? It just seems really inappropriate to post something like that, so personal, on your facebook.
A day later I log onto facebook and see someone post something about a family member passing.
Coincidence? Who knows.

What else?
We're getting new uniforms at work starting June. We can wear jeans! Yes!
I'm pretty excited.

I need to pull out my bike. If it's not raining tomorrow I really should. Of course saying that now means absolutely nothing, because Ive said it before.

Anyways, I think I'm going to leave it at that.
It's 4pm and I haven't eaten a thing since I woke up.

Later days.

Not in the mood

I'm really not in the mood to blog at all right now.

Having said that, watch me write a novel.

Monday weigh in...down 2.5lbs.

Having looked through my list of notes, its basically just normal for me to be fluctuating 1 or 2 lbs here and there.

I'm not seeing any solid results as of yet. I kind of stopped trying, like I always do with diets.

I just thought with the amount of hockey I played these past 2 weekends, something would have changed.

Anyways, I'll try to keep up with this whole weight loss business. I'm sick and tired of being chunky.

So I finally slept in today, after waking up at 7am the past 2 days to play 2 or 3 games of hockey each day. I woke up at around 9:30, just as a preliminary wake up, then went back to sleep.

From about 1o to 11 I was basically too tired/lazy to get up so I tried to sleep as best I could but at that point I couldn't fully fall asleep again. You know what I'm talking about right?

Then eventually at 11 when I got up I felt like crap. Of course. I knew it was going to happen.

Anyways, I have my coffee, Ive done my facebooking, after this I'll probably head downstairs for some yogurt and rice cakes(breakfast of champions) and watch an episode of Nurse Jackie.

Then I'll drag my butt over to work...again...for a shift that will last far too long, mainly because of who I'm working with.

BUT THEN! I have all of Tuesday off! And on Tuesday night I start my co-ed hockey league, and I'm SO excited for that.

AND THEN! I have all of Wednesday off! Hurrah! I hope the weather is nice Tuesday and Wednesday, maybe I'll actually go biking this time, or roller blading.

As for my injuries, my ankle isn't swollen anymore, but it still does hurt on the bone like a bruise. My bruise is starting to fade, but the center is still hard and very painful.

I think I will be scheduling a doctors appointment sometime this week. Perhaps on one of my off days. It's just better to know exactly whats wrong than wonder why it's taking 2 months to heal.

Hmm what else....(see? novel) So much for not wanting to blog today.

I'm starting to second guess my tattoo..more for the fact of what my dad/family will say. I know I'll never be interested in a job that wouldn't hire you based on the fact that you're covered in tattoos, so that's not really a big concern, but I don't know.

Ive found I ask myself if this is who I really am. The answer is always yes. I love art, I love being creative, I love being different. I'm getting this tattoo no matter what, I just hope my dad doesn't hate me for it.

So now I'm just waiting for George to call me! It's been almost a month, he said sometime at the end of April, I'm thinking it'll probably be in May. Justin is getting one before me, and he hasn't even been called yet, so who knows how long this will take.

Alright, I should stop talking now..or writing I guess...

Wish me luck on becoming less fat.

Thanks.

Later days

P.s. My team won first place at the Heart and Stroke tournament! Woot woot!

Yea Yea Yea

Monday weigh in....
Ugh, so I'm up 2.5lbs.

Hoorah! Even after 4 games of hockey this weekend!
Well I guess I haven't really been eating that great, and did no other exercise last week at all so.
Hoping this week goes a bit better.

I ended up getting hurt twice this weekend, one slap shot to the calve and another shot to my ankle. Both hurt a lot. Id have to say Ive never been hit that hard in those places before ever. Well we were playing against men so that might have something to do with it.

I have a nice bruise brewing on my calve in the shape of a hockey puck. It's so hot.
I wasn't able to really walk on my right foot yesterday because of the pain in my ankle, and I woke up this morning with absolutely no pain at all. Strange. Sure it hurts on the bone if you touch it, there is a bruise starting to form, but as for general pain in my ankle, its completely gone and I can walk! Although still a little swollen.
So work should be ok tonight, I was kinda dreading have to hobble around.

I just hope the swelling goes down by next weekend, I'm kind of scared to put my hockey skate back on, because I know it's going to kill every time the side touches my ankle bone. Should be nice.

Hmm what else? Well in the tournament, we were the first female team to ever be allowed to play, and we won second place in our division! I bet the guys weren't expecting that!
And they even asked us back for next year! How exciting!
We got t-shirts as prizes and they were nice enough to go through all of them and pick out all the mediums for us. Never fails that girls are always stuck with XL men's shirts. That's just how it works. Even at women's tournaments if you can believe it.

La la la!
I think I'm gonna take my bike out this week, pump up some tires and start going for rides. I found a good route to take last summer that ends up being a pretty good work out. So I shall try that out again, and maybe if I do that every day, or well the days I'm not working..(I hate to get sweaty before work..It's just gross) I'll see some improvement.

AHHH!! Hockey starts next week! Well...resumes I guess I should say.
Ive actually been missing it these past few weeks...even though I played every weekend since the season ended. But still, it's not the same. I start on my summer team from last year called The Ringers, and my new co-ed team called District 5 named after the Mighty Ducks original team. I cant wait. The co-ed team is a brand new league though, so I'm hoping the level is ok.
Get ready for a lot of new injuries from this league. Cant wait.

Hmm....That may be it for now? I know it's been a while so I had a bunch to report on.
Still VERY excited for school.
And I'm hungry...it's lunch time.
Time for foooooods.

Later days

Scrandle

It's Monday.
It's weigh in day.
*sigh* Alright, let's get this over with.

After losing the 2.5lbs last week I guess I thought I did really well and started cheating this week thinking it wouldn't really make a big deal.
So here I am.

I'm down 1 lb.

Yay for being down, but boo for being only 1 lb.
I was actually surprised seeing that though. I thought for sure I would be up from last week.
So this is good.
I just have to work extra hard this week.
Let's go me!

Tonight I'm going out to dinner with friends to celebrate getting into school.
(OMG I got into school!)
Hopefully I can control my menu picking and get something sensible.
Should be fun though, haven't seen them in a while. So much to catch up(ketchup) on.

I have a super mega shift tomorrow which I'm not at all looking forward to since my feet still hurt from my last shift.
Eww I slept in till 11:30 today. I feel gross.
Alright, well I think that's all for now.

Later days

WooHoo!

Dear Blog,

It's Monday and that means......weigh in!
And guess what...GOOD NEWS!
I am officially down 2.5lbs! What what!

I honestly didn't that Id be able to do it, but so far I'm right on track!
Its really awesome because it makes me want to work harder at this, and really achieve my goals.

I got a lot of sun today which was awesome, although it did make me a bit tired for work.

I neglected to post yesterday, and it seems I'm even too late to have posted for 'today'. Rats.
I'll try to do better!

This post sucks because I'm tired.
At least I did my weigh in, so that's all that really matters.
Hopefully I'll have the drive to post tomorrow before work, so this doesn't happen again.

Gnight Blog.

Here Comes the Sun..

...doo doo doo doo!

Other than being my favourite Beatles song, it also brings with it my favourite season.
Summer! Hurrah!

After getting a taste of spring weather earlier in March, I'm dying for some summer heat.
This coming weekend is supposed to be pretty nice, so says the weather man.
So let's all roll up our sleeves and get dirty! Perhaps it might even be car wash weather.
So now I know what I'll be doing Saturday.

With summer comes shorts, dresses, tank tops, and dare I say, bathing suits...all things I loath since gaining my graduationmen 30. (get it? freshmen 15?)
Since leaving school, my routines haven't changed at all, other than leaving school. I still work at the same place, approximately the same amount of hours, and spend my leisure time at home..sitting on the couch, and eating.
And it's all led me to here. 30 lbs heavier than I was 3 years ago. 20 of those pounds all joining me as graduation gifts.
So Ive decided to FINALLY(I'm pretty good at emphasizing finally eh?) put my foot down!
No more saying I'm on a diet and not keeping to it. This time it's for serious.
I'd love to lose all 30 of it in 2 months, but I don't think that's realistic for me. So I'm going to aim for 20 by the end of May. Then I'll concentrate on getting to exactly where I want to be after that, but for now, it's crunch time!

Maybe I'll turn Mondays into updates on how everything is progressing. Will I ever post my weight? Probably not, until I get to my goal, then you can know how fat I actually was. Key word, was. Should I do pictures? We'll see. And again, probably wont show until I get to where I want to be.

So how does one motivate ones self into taking on such a huge challenge? I don't know. Perhaps YouTube 'thinspiration'? NO! That stuff is ridiculous. If you have time, you should check out what girls do to themselves by watching that crap. They're videos consisting of pictures of anorexic/bulimic girls showing off their rib cages and skeletons. It's disgusting. But it's supposed to 'thinspire' you to lose weight. Because OMG I wish I looked like Skeletor.

Anyways, I have joined 2 hockey teams this summer, so here's hoping that helps me out with things.
My 2 big problems are portion control, and what time I eat. So I really need to work on them.
I'm proud of myself for completely switching from pop to water, and pretty much not eating junk food anymore. I find that after a while, you don't crave these foods anymore, and when you have them once in a while, it's really not that hard to eat just a bit.
I haven't had fast food(McDonald's, Harvey's..)in a REALLY long time, which is awesome!
But I do want to cut someone every time they send me McDonald's coupons.

So what have we learned today? That even my Wii Fit thinks I'm overweight and it's time to make some changes! So here goes nothing!

Later Days