Not in the mood

I'm really not in the mood to blog at all right now.

Having said that, watch me write a novel.

Monday weigh in...down 2.5lbs.

Having looked through my list of notes, its basically just normal for me to be fluctuating 1 or 2 lbs here and there.

I'm not seeing any solid results as of yet. I kind of stopped trying, like I always do with diets.

I just thought with the amount of hockey I played these past 2 weekends, something would have changed.

Anyways, I'll try to keep up with this whole weight loss business. I'm sick and tired of being chunky.

So I finally slept in today, after waking up at 7am the past 2 days to play 2 or 3 games of hockey each day. I woke up at around 9:30, just as a preliminary wake up, then went back to sleep.

From about 1o to 11 I was basically too tired/lazy to get up so I tried to sleep as best I could but at that point I couldn't fully fall asleep again. You know what I'm talking about right?

Then eventually at 11 when I got up I felt like crap. Of course. I knew it was going to happen.

Anyways, I have my coffee, Ive done my facebooking, after this I'll probably head downstairs for some yogurt and rice cakes(breakfast of champions) and watch an episode of Nurse Jackie.

Then I'll drag my butt over to work...again...for a shift that will last far too long, mainly because of who I'm working with.

BUT THEN! I have all of Tuesday off! And on Tuesday night I start my co-ed hockey league, and I'm SO excited for that.

AND THEN! I have all of Wednesday off! Hurrah! I hope the weather is nice Tuesday and Wednesday, maybe I'll actually go biking this time, or roller blading.

As for my injuries, my ankle isn't swollen anymore, but it still does hurt on the bone like a bruise. My bruise is starting to fade, but the center is still hard and very painful.

I think I will be scheduling a doctors appointment sometime this week. Perhaps on one of my off days. It's just better to know exactly whats wrong than wonder why it's taking 2 months to heal.

Hmm what else....(see? novel) So much for not wanting to blog today.

I'm starting to second guess my tattoo..more for the fact of what my dad/family will say. I know I'll never be interested in a job that wouldn't hire you based on the fact that you're covered in tattoos, so that's not really a big concern, but I don't know.

Ive found I ask myself if this is who I really am. The answer is always yes. I love art, I love being creative, I love being different. I'm getting this tattoo no matter what, I just hope my dad doesn't hate me for it.

So now I'm just waiting for George to call me! It's been almost a month, he said sometime at the end of April, I'm thinking it'll probably be in May. Justin is getting one before me, and he hasn't even been called yet, so who knows how long this will take.

Alright, I should stop talking now..or writing I guess...

Wish me luck on becoming less fat.

Thanks.

Later days

P.s. My team won first place at the Heart and Stroke tournament! Woot woot!

Yea Yea Yea

Monday weigh in....
Ugh, so I'm up 2.5lbs.

Hoorah! Even after 4 games of hockey this weekend!
Well I guess I haven't really been eating that great, and did no other exercise last week at all so.
Hoping this week goes a bit better.

I ended up getting hurt twice this weekend, one slap shot to the calve and another shot to my ankle. Both hurt a lot. Id have to say Ive never been hit that hard in those places before ever. Well we were playing against men so that might have something to do with it.

I have a nice bruise brewing on my calve in the shape of a hockey puck. It's so hot.
I wasn't able to really walk on my right foot yesterday because of the pain in my ankle, and I woke up this morning with absolutely no pain at all. Strange. Sure it hurts on the bone if you touch it, there is a bruise starting to form, but as for general pain in my ankle, its completely gone and I can walk! Although still a little swollen.
So work should be ok tonight, I was kinda dreading have to hobble around.

I just hope the swelling goes down by next weekend, I'm kind of scared to put my hockey skate back on, because I know it's going to kill every time the side touches my ankle bone. Should be nice.

Hmm what else? Well in the tournament, we were the first female team to ever be allowed to play, and we won second place in our division! I bet the guys weren't expecting that!
And they even asked us back for next year! How exciting!
We got t-shirts as prizes and they were nice enough to go through all of them and pick out all the mediums for us. Never fails that girls are always stuck with XL men's shirts. That's just how it works. Even at women's tournaments if you can believe it.

La la la!
I think I'm gonna take my bike out this week, pump up some tires and start going for rides. I found a good route to take last summer that ends up being a pretty good work out. So I shall try that out again, and maybe if I do that every day, or well the days I'm not working..(I hate to get sweaty before work..It's just gross) I'll see some improvement.

AHHH!! Hockey starts next week! Well...resumes I guess I should say.
Ive actually been missing it these past few weeks...even though I played every weekend since the season ended. But still, it's not the same. I start on my summer team from last year called The Ringers, and my new co-ed team called District 5 named after the Mighty Ducks original team. I cant wait. The co-ed team is a brand new league though, so I'm hoping the level is ok.
Get ready for a lot of new injuries from this league. Cant wait.

Hmm....That may be it for now? I know it's been a while so I had a bunch to report on.
Still VERY excited for school.
And I'm hungry...it's lunch time.
Time for foooooods.

Later days

I in Team

Last night's shinny was just a bundle of disappointment.

First of all, the game that was on before us was a play off game. So after resulting in a tie, it went to over time which resulted in another tie, so it went to a shoot out, which resulted in yet another tie, so it then went into another over time, can you guess what happened? Yes it went into a final shoot out and was finally over! Half way into our ice time might I add.

Secondly, there were 'I in team' idiots playing. Justin came up with that perfect title for them.
They were on the other team, and always seemed to be on at the same time as each other.
They were in a league of their own, showing off their skills, passing and skating around everyone.
I'm sure they were having an awesome time! Wow perfect chance to work on their skills around pylons.
Ive played shinny with people like this before, and that's why I don't play shinny with them anymore. The first shinny last Saturday was a lot of fun, because these people weren't there, but this time around? I wouldn't play again if they were there.
It's not fun being skated around constantly and made a fool. There was no point in even trying to do anything every time they skated down the ice so I just let them go. Hopefully no challenge is more fun for them.

Don't get me wrong, I like challenging myself by playing with people who have a greater skill than I do, that's how you get better, but not when these people are just being ridiculous and taking it so seriously. There is no room for improvement playing with people like that.

Anyways, the moral of the story was, everyone I talked to had a problem with the 'I in team' guys, so hopefully they wont show up at the next shinny, because I'd really like to play again with the other people.

Later days

Time to stop worrying because...

...I got accepted into Animation!!

Oh man, the letter finally came!
It came in a big envelope so when I saw it I was excited! Then I touched it and noticed it was a lot thinner than my usual acceptance letters were, so I got a little worried.
I heard you can get denied in big envelopes too, so it threw me off.

So there I am, standing in the kitchen, knife in one hand, letter in the other, with my mom staring at me waiting for me to gut it open. I open it up, take a tiny peek inside and see the word 'Congratulations!' and I ran into the hall jumping in the air with a giant smile on my face. My mom is dying to know what it says so I yank out the contents and start reading;
'Dear Ms. Tara Lloyd,
Congratulations!
You have been offered admission into the Animation program.' ...etc...
My mom screamed yay and clapped her hands, because she's cool like that, and I just hugged my letter.

I then ran upstairs to log onto ontariocolleges.com to accept my offer, and then post it all on facebook. Obviously, right?

Then! My mom tells me I also got my GST cheque in the mail!
It was like a double good day.

While I was on Facebook, one of my friends from my old Art Fundamentals class who is now taking Animation messaged me.
We were talking about the program and I was getting even more excited. He did tell me how much work is really involved though, and how I probably will be living at the school and have absolutely no social life. He told me that a lot of people who started with him were gone because they got kicked out for not maintaining a high enough GPA. That kind of freaked me out a bit, but I don't think I could let myself do so poorly in school.

I really want to try hard with this program. I want to be able to see myself improve, and I just want to do good! Especially for the amount of money the tuition is going to be.

I also hope it wont be so demanding that I cant still play hockey once a week, and work 2 days a week so I can afford my car! I cant quit my job no matter what, I wont have any way to pay off my car if I do. I need to figure out a way to make it all work. Hopefully Ill be able to work weekends, because I know during the week I'll be expected to go to extra life drawing after classes.

I think Ive decided the cheapest mode of transportation is bus tokens, vs metro pass and parking. If I get a ride to school every day, I only need tokens for the ride back. Hopefully I'll be able to get a locker this time, so I wont have to lug around a lot of stuff with me, and I wont mind taking the bus.

Anyways, so much to think about and I have 5 months until September rolls around. I really hope I enjoy this program, and I hope it doesn't make me hate drawing like Art Fundamentals did, and the photography course for taking pictures. I just gotta keep thinking about all the things I'll be able to do after it all.

Alright, that's my post for today.
Tonight is my championship game and will determine if we make it to first or second place, each getting a prize! First gets a skate towel and a bath towel, second place gets skate guards....I know..amazing prizes. I'll let you know tomorrow!

Later Days

Quick Update!

Today we had Easter dinner at my house.
I ate ham with pineapple. It was delicious.

I also washed my car today, inside and out. It's shiny.

My legs kill from yesterdays workout. Go me and working out my legs the day before I play hockey. Tonight's shinny should be interesting.

My brother and sister in law promised to come out to a couple of my games in Stouffville this summer, so I'm kind of excited for that.

I still cant find my DVD of Across the Universe that I swear I lent to my brother, but he says he doesn't have.

It's super windy outside right now and I hope I don't get blown over.

That is all.

Later days

La La La

Alright, trying to get an early post in here today.

And with that, I have absolutely nothing to write about.
It's a beautiful day outside today, I can only hope people will be out and about on their day off instead of renting movies and staying in.
I really hope no one comes in tonight, I'm definitely not in the mood.

I also hope I don't get scrutinized by the new manager tonight. I have a feeling I'm going to get yelled at for not asking every single person if they want to pre-order Avatar, or even one single person for that matter. I hate up selling.

Anyways, today consisted of waking up late-ish, having my morning cup of coffee whilst internetting. Hanging out in the back yard for a bit with my dad and the pups, finding out the water fountain isn't working(might still be frozen), and yelling at Baxter for eating bird seed, because he's clearly not a bird. I then went on to fold my laundry that I did yesterday and left conveniently in the dryer. Yay clean hockey clothes and jerseys! (I smell)
Then had some lunch, watched 5 mins of Bad Lieutenant and gave up, and now I'm here.

What fun! Maybe I'll get my bike out, put some air in the tires and go for a ride.
I found a video on YouTube of some workouts for strengthening your legs for hockey, so I may do that for a bit. I really don't want to die in my co-ed division.

Anywho, I cant really think of much more to say. So I'll leave it at that.

Later Days

Eeek!

So I forgot to post today.

Some thoughts from the day.

I'm excited to meet my new team and play some shinny this Saturday.

I am not at all looking forward to working a whole shift with the new manager tomorrow night, although it is time and a half.
I'll let you know if it was worth the extra money.

I bought jello today. I havent been this excited about jello before. Dont ask me why, because I have no idea.

I snacked more than I should have today. Grr...

It's april fools and I wasnt fooled once today! HAH!


Easter weekend coming up!
Dont forget to go egg hunting!

Later Days

Here Comes the Sun..

...doo doo doo doo!

Other than being my favourite Beatles song, it also brings with it my favourite season.
Summer! Hurrah!

After getting a taste of spring weather earlier in March, I'm dying for some summer heat.
This coming weekend is supposed to be pretty nice, so says the weather man.
So let's all roll up our sleeves and get dirty! Perhaps it might even be car wash weather.
So now I know what I'll be doing Saturday.

With summer comes shorts, dresses, tank tops, and dare I say, bathing suits...all things I loath since gaining my graduationmen 30. (get it? freshmen 15?)
Since leaving school, my routines haven't changed at all, other than leaving school. I still work at the same place, approximately the same amount of hours, and spend my leisure time at home..sitting on the couch, and eating.
And it's all led me to here. 30 lbs heavier than I was 3 years ago. 20 of those pounds all joining me as graduation gifts.
So Ive decided to FINALLY(I'm pretty good at emphasizing finally eh?) put my foot down!
No more saying I'm on a diet and not keeping to it. This time it's for serious.
I'd love to lose all 30 of it in 2 months, but I don't think that's realistic for me. So I'm going to aim for 20 by the end of May. Then I'll concentrate on getting to exactly where I want to be after that, but for now, it's crunch time!

Maybe I'll turn Mondays into updates on how everything is progressing. Will I ever post my weight? Probably not, until I get to my goal, then you can know how fat I actually was. Key word, was. Should I do pictures? We'll see. And again, probably wont show until I get to where I want to be.

So how does one motivate ones self into taking on such a huge challenge? I don't know. Perhaps YouTube 'thinspiration'? NO! That stuff is ridiculous. If you have time, you should check out what girls do to themselves by watching that crap. They're videos consisting of pictures of anorexic/bulimic girls showing off their rib cages and skeletons. It's disgusting. But it's supposed to 'thinspire' you to lose weight. Because OMG I wish I looked like Skeletor.

Anyways, I have joined 2 hockey teams this summer, so here's hoping that helps me out with things.
My 2 big problems are portion control, and what time I eat. So I really need to work on them.
I'm proud of myself for completely switching from pop to water, and pretty much not eating junk food anymore. I find that after a while, you don't crave these foods anymore, and when you have them once in a while, it's really not that hard to eat just a bit.
I haven't had fast food(McDonald's, Harvey's..)in a REALLY long time, which is awesome!
But I do want to cut someone every time they send me McDonald's coupons.

So what have we learned today? That even my Wii Fit thinks I'm overweight and it's time to make some changes! So here goes nothing!

Later Days